always my father, but not my dad made by marissa mcclain

always my father, but not my dad 

I'm sorry you missed out when when I went to school for the first time,
and you didn't have me tell you that you were all mine,

I'm sorry you weren't there to take me to the mall,
and weren't there to tell me to stand tall,
or the one I'd run up to when I had a bad day,

I'm sorry you didn't hear me write this
you would've been so proud,
and you weren't there to lift me up on a cloud,

sorry you weren't there to tell me I shouldn't fear
but then again you should've been there,

I'm sorry you weren't there to teach me to do things
I'm sorry you weren't the one who carried me on your back that was my mamma, at least she was there,

I'm sorry you weren't there to hold me when I cried,
or tell me I did great when I really tried,

I'm sorry you weren't there to teach me how to cook,
or even had the time to read my favorite book,

I'm sorry me as a daughter is what you never had.
you will always be my father but never will be my dad.